We've been busy

Within 2 weeks my Sister and Eric's brother both bought new houses. Both of which need painted, new lights hung and even some carpet ripped up and new trim put down. Both houses are in good shape just need some TLC. I am so happy for both of them and we have been doing everything we can to help them out. Eric has been a little more in demand I must say, he has been building a half wall, dry-walling, hanging lights, and soon to come laying trim. I often take advantage of all the things that Eric can do around the house. If he doesnt know how to do it just show him once and he picks up on it. I have been busy helping my Sister and her Husband paint. I am going to go today and we should get it all finished up and ready for Eric to lay the trim. They want to move in around November 1st so we have some time but the sooner the better I say. My Sister gets distracted easily so its a full time job keeping her focused when I'm there. We have a lot of fun working together even though we are so different in our ways. Eric and I couldn't be happier for our siblings and have enjoyed helping them get their house's ready to become homes. Love you guys!

When will I learn?

Are you wondering when I will learn what? Well I'm going to tell you...When will I learn that I can't force my Sister and Dad to form a better relationship? I can't make my sister forgive Dad for the things that he has done in the past no more than I can make him apologize for not being there at times when we were younger. I have forgiven Dad for so much and have become extremely close to him in the past few years. I don't like going days without talking to him. I have always hoped that my Sister and Dad would get there to or even close to there. Well it's sadly probably not going to happen! They are both very stubborn and my Dad did something to my Sister that she may never forgive him for. When she was 16 or 17 he signed away custody so he wouldn't have to pay child support because he didn't agree with her riding bulls. She has never came out and said it but I know that hurt her more than anything and to be honest it hurt me to but not the same way. I don't want you all to think I have some dead beat Dad, its not like that. Financially Dad was always there and always tried to help out Mom when he could, but my parents divorced when my sister was 3 months old so they have never really bonded like Dad and I did.

The reason all of this is coming up after 7 years is because of my little brother who is 10. Actually he will be 10, tomorrow is birthday party and my sister isn't coming. She is cleaning on their new house which I think is great but she was going to come today and see him but didn't. She said she is uncomfortable and honestly still holds a grudge against Dad. Now if you've read my post before my Sister is EVERYTHING to me, I mean she is my person, always there for me and supports me. I want my little brother to experience that as well .So I find myself trying to make their relationship out of the few times the my sister does come up here. So, when will I learn? I guess today! I cant make my Sister and Dad's relationship better only they can and I cant make my Sister and Brother close time will tell that on its own. It's hard trying to be the fixer in a family like mine, especially because I'm the one who gets upset when it doesn't work out. For now I am going to call my Sister back and make sure she is okay because I can't stand that she is hurting over something I brought up.

Happy Birthday Shelly!

I would like to wish a big Happy Birthday to my sister. She normally hates her birthday because of her birthday curse. Yes I said curse...for the last I don't know how many years around her birthday something bad has happened. Here is just a few of the big things that have occurred..both our Grandparents passed away within a week of her birthday(not the same year), she and Jimmy where in a horrible car accident where she almost went through the windshield, she had to move reluctantly from her home on her birthday one year, Jimmy burned his eyes with a welder last year a day before her birthday. I am sure there is more but no need to go into more I think you get the idea. Well this year the curse was broken! She had a great birthday and the week before was good too! Mom and I made our way down to her house and we ate lunch and then went to the beach. They say a picture is worth a thousand words so here you go...

My sister doesn't own a pair of sandals so she went to the beach in her boots! I guess thats why we love her so much. She doesn't give a crap what people think about her she is just her. Hope you had a GREAT Birthday Shell, I love you.

My sister is stronger than me

You all know how much I love my sister, I am her biggest fan but also her toughest critic. My sister has always been strong physically and emotionally but tonight she is doing something I am not sure I could do in her shoes. She is attending her 5 year class reunion. Now unlike me she didn't enjoy high school so this is a big deal for her. She had a two close girlfriends in high school but most of the other girls were not so nice. She ended up dropping out her junior year and getting her GED. I cant' say that the only reason for this was her fellow classmates because there was way more to it than that but I am saying that I am really proud of her for going back and facing anyone that doubted that she would do something with her life. I love you Shell.

What!?

I want to apologize in advance for the fact that this post may be very all over the place. Okay, so I don't know if you all know this but I have a younger sister that means the world to me. I want nothing more than for her to be happy. Well recently we had gotten some good news that her and her husband were going to get a chance to buy a house and some land with barns and everything. She was so happy, happier than she has been in awhile. The place they live now is getting run down and there is only so much she can do to fix it up because god love her husband he is worthless in the construction department. Needless to say she is at her wits end with this place and wants out! Tonight my Mom called and said that the guy may be backing out of selling now because he is making money renting it out! Mind you he isn't the type of guy that needs this money to put food on the table he's got plenty! The kicker is this guy is a friend of my sister and her husbands and he came to them asking them if they were interested in buying this place because he had heard they were thinking of buying and didn't want to see them move far away. They help him out alot of with his cattle and so forth and he said he really would like them to have this place so they can still be close. I know things like this happen to people all the time but this is my sister and I am mad for her. I want her to be happy, I protect her, I take her side and set her straight when she is wrong but this isn't right. This man talked them out of looking for other places insuring them they could buy his place and they trusted him, and why not because he is a long time friend. I hate that my sister is at home probably upset asking herself why did this happen and then trying to stay positive because she wont allow herself to feel sorry for herself (partly due to my preaching.) I have tried to call and she obviously cant talk to me right now and she can always talk to me. Its a good thing I don't know this guys last name or he would be getting a piece of my mind via telephone right now. My heart just hurts for her right now and I cant physically do anything to help. I am not big on saying that anyone deserves anything because the Lord blesses us all even when its not right in front of us but she has worked hard and wants a place to be proud of and call her own and I want that for her and I feel like she does deserve it. All I can do is pray for my sisters strength to get through this and that this guy will do the right thing and stand by his word.

A Short Story

Sunday when I went and hung out with my Sis and Mom we went to a little shoe store in town and we were just looking around. Mom and I were trying on flip flops and such and Shell was looking for some shoes to wear to work. She finally found a pair of Doc Martins(I know not so much in style any more.) and was trying them on. I don't know if you all know this but even though Shelly and I are really close we are opposite in so many ways. Anyway......As she is walking around trying to decide if these shoes will work she ask me...."can I wear these with capris?" I was like....."NO Shelly you can not wear them with capris! Are you kidding me?" The sad thing is she was so serious!!!! She hates shorts and flip flops so she was trying to figure out what kind of shoes she could wear with capris!! Mom and I laughed for quite awhile over her silly question so I thought I would share.....

What made my childhood bearable???

My favorite thing of the week is here again...Mama Kats writing assignment, here are this weeks prompts....

1.) For your birthday a sibling has decided to have the first six months of your blog printed and bound. Write a forward for the book.

2.) Write a 26-line poem using all the letters of the alphabet, where the first line starts with the letter "A," the second "B," the third "C," etc., culminating with the final line starting with "Z."(writersdigest.com)

3.) Start your story with, "In retrospect, I wouldn't say it was my best idea." And end it with, "And that's how I attempted to make this world a better place.(writersdigest.com)

4.) What would the truth have done? Write about a time when honesty was NOT the best policy.(writingfix.com)

5.) What made your childhood bearable? Write about it.

I have choose to do #5. What made your childhood bearable? This is an easy question for me to answer. Although my grandparents are close runner ups my sister is what made my childhood bearable. Our parents were divorced when I was three and she was only three months. From the time I can remember we have been looking out for each other. Even though I torchered her at times as you read from last weeks assignment, I was the only one allowed to do so. I can't even begin to explain how she made my childhood bearable. We have a bond that only sisters can have. The kind of bond that at its worst is more than you could ask for. I love my parents but being divorced things were not always the easiest on us. Sometimes we felt torn between them and I become much of a people pleaser wanting everyone to be happy. My sister on the other hand was the opposite, she felt what she felt and didn't apologize for it. Even though we are almost complete opposites we have always been close. Some of my best memories were spent riding our horses at Grandmas and being completely silly. We would do things that only we thought were funny and spend hours riding up and down the same dirt road. The days of being a kid are long gone and yet the closeness we share is as strong as ever. She is my go to person, the one person that even if I am wrong she will do her best to side with me. I could call her in the middle of night for any reason big or small and I know she would be there for me. My husband sometimes gets a little upset that I say this because he feels like he should be that person. In some ways he is but I try to tell him that she has been there my whole life and there is an unconditional love there that cant be broken. I love you sis, I cant imagine my life without you, your the best sister anyone could ask for.