




Within 2 weeks my Sister and Eric's brother both bought new houses. Both of which need painted, new lights hung and even some carpet ripped up and new trim put down. Both houses are in good shape just need some TLC. I am so happy for both of them and we have been doing everything we can to help them out. Eric has been a little more in demand I must say, he has been building a half wall, dry-walling, hanging lights, and soon to come laying trim. I often take advantage of all the things that Eric can do around the house. If he doesnt know how to do it just show him once and he picks up on it. I have been busy helping my Sister and her Husband paint. I am going to go today and we should get it all finished up and ready for Eric to lay the trim. They want to move in around November 1st so we have some time but the sooner the better I say. My Sister gets distracted easily so its a full time job keeping her focused when I'm there. We have a lot of fun working together even though we are so different in our ways. Eric and I couldn't be happier for our siblings and have enjoyed helping them get their house's ready to become homes. Love you guys!
Tonight I feel down, I feel like Im sad for really no reason. So instead of complaining I am taking another road and going to list a few things I am grateful for in-spite of the fact I feel so low. I do this from time to time but if you want to check out a blog that does it everyday, check out Jordan @ Wide Open Spaces.
1. Having a few minutes on a Sunday morning to laugh and chat with Eric.
2. A beautiful fall day that allows me to drive the jeep and feel the wind in my hair.
3. A 10 year olds birthday party.
4. Girl Scout cookies...enough said.
5. Carry out at Buffalo Wild Wings.
In the past 2 days I have witnessed 2 things I find very disrespectful. The first one was last night driving home from dinner. We meet an ambulance and we were the ONLY ones that pulled over!!! In fact the truck behind us rode our ass as we slowed down and pulled over. Do they not teach in drivers ed to get out of the way when there is any emergency vehicle coming? Please people show some respect that could be your loved one in there someday. The second thing was this morning when I was leaving work. I work across from a church and as I was leaving there was a funeral procession starting. I continued to stay at the stop sign as all the cars left the church. However other cars were not so kind. They were trying to pull out into the street and go around the procession. Again when I see a funeral procession you NEVER pull out in front of them and if you meet them you respectfully pull over! In the funeral processions I have been in it means a lot to a person to have perfect strangers pull over in respect for your loved one. Its a small gesture but still nice.
Are you wondering when I will learn what? Well I'm going to tell you...When will I learn that I can't force my Sister and Dad to form a better relationship? I can't make my sister forgive Dad for the things that he has done in the past no more than I can make him apologize for not being there at times when we were younger. I have forgiven Dad for so much and have become extremely close to him in the past few years. I don't like going days without talking to him. I have always hoped that my Sister and Dad would get there to or even close to there. Well it's sadly probably not going to happen! They are both very stubborn and my Dad did something to my Sister that she may never forgive him for. When she was 16 or 17 he signed away custody so he wouldn't have to pay child support because he didn't agree with her riding bulls. She has never came out and said it but I know that hurt her more than anything and to be honest it hurt me to but not the same way. I don't want you all to think I have some dead beat Dad, its not like that. Financially Dad was always there and always tried to help out Mom when he could, but my parents divorced when my sister was 3 months old so they have never really bonded like Dad and I did.
The reason all of this is coming up after 7 years is because of my little brother who is 10. Actually he will be 10, tomorrow is birthday party and my sister isn't coming. She is cleaning on their new house which I think is great but she was going to come today and see him but didn't. She said she is uncomfortable and honestly still holds a grudge against Dad. Now if you've read my post before my Sister is EVERYTHING to me, I mean she is my person, always there for me and supports me. I want my little brother to experience that as well .So I find myself trying to make their relationship out of the few times the my sister does come up here. So, when will I learn? I guess today! I cant make my Sister and Dad's relationship better only they can and I cant make my Sister and Brother close time will tell that on its own. It's hard trying to be the fixer in a family like mine, especially because I'm the one who gets upset when it doesn't work out. For now I am going to call my Sister back and make sure she is okay because I can't stand that she is hurting over something I brought up.
So I am in a mood, like a mood that I just cant shake! This is going to be a random post about whats on my mind. First off I am sitting at home feeling sorry for myself while my two girlfriends are out having fun. Yes I said it and I sound like a little baby. Thursday nights have become a night where we go meet up with a few friends have a few drinks and Eric plays pool. Well this Thursday we had decided to take a Thursday off. That was before Eric got called to go to work and I am sitting at home by myself. Eric had no problem with me going but I felt like no we said we were going to skip this one so I should stay home. Not only that but my two girlfriends are single and obviously I am not. Mind you I am happy about being married, I love Eric. I wouldn't want to be out in the single scene. I just don't want the people that live in this small town to get the wrong idea. I have to go out without Eric sometimes but I feel like I should keep it minimum. I know, I know, Eric says screw what everyone thinks but unfortunately I care to much about what people do think so I just can't. Any how the girls sent me a picture they printed off of me, which I'm not sure how they got but anyway the text said, "see you're here with us". I know guilt trip right?! That's where this first random part of my post has come from, basically me feeling bad for myself due to no ones fault but my own!
Second random thing on my mind.....People screening their calls! Why do people do this? I mean I have been known to screen calls from family members but never my friends. If you call me and I don't answer its because I really couldn't get the phone. The sad thing is I don't just have one friend to call out on this little issue. All my friends do this! How about a quick text that says hey swamped right now ttyl. I'm not taking this personal because I really don't think it is, but don't blame your children because thats a cop-out. I am sure that this may make some people unhappy and I'm sorry but its how I'm feeling right now. Tomorrow when this mood flys over I am sure this will all seem so petty, but tonight it was blog worthy and I already feel better.
Im happy to announce that my friend and neighbor has started a blog. You need to check her out! She has 4 little girls, a husband, and 9 sisters and brothers! How could she not have an amazing blog? Her name is Rachel so give her a big blogger welcome and click here to check it out!
Today is my honey's birthday, so a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! This morning about 5 a.m. I woke up to use the little girls room and as I stumbled to the bathroom I thought I should go make Eric a big birthday breakfast before he goes to work at 7. I was thinking he would really like that, if only I was a better wife I would definitely go do that.....that thought was seconds before I fell in the toilet because my wonderful husband left the damn toilet seat up!!! After that I was like nope no birthday breakfast for him, my wet ass is going back to bed!!! I even forgot to give him his card before he left so now I am going to make him something good for dinner and bake an apple pie because he likes that better than cake.
Happy Birthday Eric! I'm glad you're finally the same age as me!
I am still having bloggers block. I can't seem to get things down in writing. Eric and I were off all last week together and did fun things all week but when I would sit down to blog about them it just seemed so boring, I was like I wouldn't want to read this crap and I did it. I am still feeling this way but thought I should attempt to blog something so people wouldn't think I fell off blogger earth. In the past week I have been to a St. Louis Cards game, gone to Moonshine for a yummy hamburger, did some great shopping with my best friend, visited an oil rig,(yes an oil rig, that should be a blog entry in itself), went to see Rodney Carrington, found that I love the beer Land-shark, and slept in way to much! It was a great week off to say the least.
I know it's early in the week but this week is looking good too! Today I went and looked at my sister and her hubbys house they are going to buy. It was very nice, needs some cleaning and paint but other than that will make a great home. Tomorrow is Eric's Birthday so I am sure I will try to plan something fun for him. Hopefully my blogger block will pass soon, but if it doesn't please stick it out with me, would ya?
My Saturday started by my alarm going off at 5:50 a.m! Yep that's right 5:50 a.m. Maria and I had to start doing up-do's for a wedding here at the house at 6:30. I had the coffee pot set up so it was ready and waiting! We didn't even have to get out of our pajama's. We got their hair done in good time and by 9 a.m. I had my whole day ahead of me. I decided to run into Effingham to get my god son's birthday present and a bite to eat. It had started raining pretty good while I was in town so I decided that the rest of my afternoon would be amazing laying around on the couch maybe catching a nap and sitting on my laptop. I love rainy days because it gives you an excuse to be totally lazy and just lay around and catch up DVR'd tv, facebook quiz's, and eat anything you want. The bad side of a lazy rainy day is now I need to get motivated to do something and that is tough. I may have to have another pot of coffee just get myself up and going again. It's only 6 o'clock and it feels likes it's much later. Happy Labor Day Weekend everyone.
I've been sitting here at my computer for the last hour trying to think of something to blog about. I had typed a few ideas in my phone the other day and none of them really seem blog worthy now. I have no funny, witty stories to tell, not even a grip worth typing out to tell people. Its like I have been hit with a bloggers block mac truck. Hopefully this weekend we will do some blog worthy stuff and will be able to share it with you all!
Im tired of being sick!
I want to go to work!
I want to be around people!
I want to go to lunch with the girls at work!
I want to go on a jeep ride!
I want to put my contacts in and put makeup on!
I am not a good sick person. One afternoon home sick from work is plenty. It's not like a snow day where you can do little things around in the house...oh no its more like lay around cough, sneeze, snot you get the picture. I'm trying to get some extra sleep because I know that will help my body fight this sickness but I can only lay in bed for so long till I just cant do it. Eric said if I was a good sick person maybe he would take me on a short jeep ride later this evening. Surely some fresh air will make me feel better or the allergies in the air will add fuel to the fire we shall see. Until then I guess I will try and sleep and find something on horrible day time tv.
I hate to say it but I am sick AGAIN!!! This may be like my 3 or 4th sick post since I started blogging and thats in less than a year!!! Well this time it started out as allergies and sinus's but has really gotten worse in the past two days. It doesn't help that I just went to the doctor today and ran myself ragged last week. I went to the doctor after lunch and thought I would go back to work after I got my meds. However I was running a fever and feeling worse by the second, so one of the girls at work moved my clients and I came home. I got myself all settled in on the couch to take a nap. Fast forward 30 minutes and I start coughing my head off! My eyes are watering then I sneeze a few times, cough some more and then finally have to just get up. I haven't been able to sleep the last 2 nights so I don't know why I thought this would be any better. I have tried propping myself up and thats not cutting it! I am really wishing I would have let Eric buy the recliner he wanted for the house instead of this trendy chair and ottoman! Live and learn. I guess I will try and get propped back up for another cat nap. A big Thank You to Stacy for making me go to the doctor and for also moving my clients.
Only a couple of weeks ago Eric and I were sick with some nasty stomach flu and now Eric has an upper respiratory infection or at least thats what the Dr. at our Prompt Care Clinic says. His mouth is full of sores, so is his throat and his face is swollen because of his glands. I have heard of more people being sick this summer and its not right. Its summer we are supposed to be soaking up the sun, having fruity drinks, and hanging out with friends. Instead I am inside disinfecting anything Eric touches because I don't want any chance for this summer sickness to spread to me.Please no more summer sickness in our house we've had enough! Hope everyone else out there is avoiding this summer sickness going around.
You all know how much I love my sister, I am her biggest fan but also her toughest critic. My sister has always been strong physically and emotionally but tonight she is doing something I am not sure I could do in her shoes. She is attending her 5 year class reunion. Now unlike me she didn't enjoy high school so this is a big deal for her. She had a two close girlfriends in high school but most of the other girls were not so nice. She ended up dropping out her junior year and getting her GED. I cant' say that the only reason for this was her fellow classmates because there was way more to it than that but I am saying that I am really proud of her for going back and facing anyone that doubted that she would do something with her life. I love you Shell.